In our childhood, something has occurred that made our body feel a “hormone-like” shot (adrenaline, serotonin, dopamine, cortisol, etc) that was unknown to us until then and that we felt uncomfortable and potentially dangerous as a result of being unknown. I am also thinking this is a very personal wound that we “recognize from past lives”, something we were not able to release in the “past” and so we have a sensitivity to it as children. (this is just a theory I have)
In the face of that “threat-feeling”, we react by immediately blocking it with a strand of thoughts and subsequent actions. That physical sensation has been transmuted into “feelings” like being frustrated, being upset, being angry, being unhappy, being fearful, etc.

! Become aware that uncomfortable physical shot-like sensation are being transmuted into thought-substance !

Think of these thoughts like gates that don’t let that initial physical sensation to be expressed. We feel that sensation is too strange, too foreign, too threatening to who we are to let it express itself: it is similar to seeing a tiger charging at us and remain in front of it. From what I am getting by now, our soul seems to have a memory of that threat-sensation from past lives, which makes it so that no amount of thinking or behaving differently would be useful in healing it, as it is impossible for the mind to perceive all those “past lives”… (the way I see past lives now, by the way, is different thoughts and different actions that have been manifested to block the allowing of the sensation)

! Thought-substance and action block uncomfortable sensations from manifesting !

I like to think of thought as thought-substance – a sort of a different form of energy that is being used in order to stop the sensation from manifesting. The Thoughts have Zero Reality about them, as they are conceived by the mind Exclusively for this purpose: to not allow what is, to not allow the sensation to fully take place. Our “logic”, our “proofs”, our assessment of any situation, is just following that one single scope: to keep a part of ourselves from feeling uncomfortable. The changing of thought patterns and of the ways we act and do things have Zero Healing Attached. NOTHING will change the inner sensations. Underneath the different thoughts, the different actions, the different ways to proceed in life – the sensation, the emotional signature, the wound, will remain the same – STUCK!
Throughout the first part of my life, I ran away from feeling that uncomfortable sensation through all kinds of stuff… marriages, alcohol, loosing myself in taking care of other people’s needs, etc. The last 4 years, I have begun healing my thought-substance, until I knew exactly how life was supposed to work – or so I thought! I realized then, that emotionally, “inside myself”, I was holding the same sensations. The only difference was that they were held in through very “healthy” and “spiritual” theories and actions, but none of that would change my experiencing life. It is then that I realized that what we think and what we do, has no power to cure, in the same way a doctor has no power to cure, no matter how performant his tools are. Only God cures. And God is nothing but the freedom to allow anything that happens in the moment – no running from it, no blocking it.. just allowing.

! Remove the block and allow sensation

So that hormone-shot sensation just needs to be allowed. By allowing that sensation to be what it needs to be, it will become able to move, to fade, to disappear and to heal. When we feel that sensation fully, it is BECAUSE it leaves the gates of the castle – the Ketu castle, the castle of thought and action. It’s the same way as giving birth: when the baby is birthed, we FEEL that horrible pain, but we know that is for a “good cause”. In this context, we are in a position where we have no clue that there’s something amazing that comes out into the world after that birth, after that pain. So we fear this pain and try to avoid it by keeping that “baby” in.. Throughout our lives, we try to continuously find more and more gate-force – aka thoughts – to keep that sensation at bay, not realizing that that is what we need to release. Our mind is keeping us thinking that we need to fix the pain externally, instead of allowing the root pain to be moved through and leave. This is very much the difference between “curing” cancer with drugs and fasting cancer off. With that sensation being stuck, NOTHING will change because, wherever we go, whomever we are with, the root pain is going to very soon start producing similar types of gates – thoughts that keep hormone-shot blocked from manifesting/releasing. We keep trying to cure cancer with different types of poisons: chemotherapy, radiotherapy, organ excisions… instead of giving the body the opportunity to release it and to heal it naturally. We keep trying to cure our emotional issues through the same techniques: changing partners, blaming partners, falling in love, falling out of love… only to realize at the end that the cancer – metaphorical or not, is still there, thriving!

All thought is, all action is, is a different type of a gate, of a blockage, of a brick wall, a different substance used in the chemotherapy so to speak, a different pill, but it is in no way a cure – just a masking of symptoms. By acting and thinking of different ways of going about life, we are just barely managing to soothe the symptoms that “cancer” gives, but we are nowhere near close to curing the disease itself and so it will keep growing inside until it kills us. It is through fasting – aka through not feeding the body (and the mind) with the same poisons over and over, that the body heals naturally, by itself, as it is programmed in that way. AFTER we have fasted for a while – aka not believing in thought or action, but in what I like to call contemplation, we will naturally be emerging with a better, more healthy diet that will immediately have its effects because that is the natural, godly, universal way that nature works. And that’s exactly the opposite of cancer: the opposite of cells working unnaturally and multiplying over and over in our experience until they overcome and destroy us.

So !! The only real spiritual progress I have made in my entire life was to understand that thought is a substance, an energy form that has no value in healing. Actions – same thing. No matter what those actions and thoughts are, how different or opposing or similar, they are all simply pills to mask the symptoms. My answer is to stop taking those pills: stop believing in thought. Stop creating movement – aka any external action. It may seem that we have to think differently or act differently or try different ways, but that is still a trap, it’s still a way to block the poisons from inside to leave us.
When I have started disbelieving EVERYTHING, this is when the true me revealed itself: millions of forms of thought substance, shooting at one another, bodily sensations triggering different cell types, TRAPPED inside and shooting at what they could, in order to get out, feeling electrical, feeling charged… The first few times, I really thought I was going to die. No, not a metaphor or a figure of speech… simply feeling my throat closing in, my lungs blocked… etc etc. As I disbelieved more and more the thought that I was going to die, as I disbelieved more and more that there needs to be a search for a God somewhere, I realized that the only pain, was that of holding on to thought form. Any thought form. I clearly saw how the suffering I was experiencing was due to the “glue” between two energy forms: the bodily sensation and the thought-substance, the association I was making between a tingling sensation with a thought that said something was not okay. When I removed that glue, the sensations in the body started manifesting freely, leaving a clear, clean, happy place that they had once been. That place literally felt like what we would call peace, but really what it feels like, is just a trust, a knowing that this, what is happening, just is. And it is PERFECT. It is from that perfect place that our thoughts genuinely start to change, our actions genuinely follow our dharma. Up to that point, there’s only disease of mind and body.

Example of how to actually do it:
Let’s say your partner is doing something or telling you something or just their presence evokes an uncomfortable story (that we call feeling) in you.
Keep your focus, your awareness, on how that story is felt in your body. You will see that the first “instinct” is to start building more on the story… do that for a while, until the body gets a full “immersion” of a certain bodily sensation: constriction, burning, tingling, electrical feeling, etc. Do a sort of a mapping out of the physical sensations and at this moment say to yourself: it is these sensations right here that I am in need to feel, but the story has no value. At that moment, relax the focus on the story, even if it is still powerful and wants to be there in the background – remember, it is the holding on to the story, not the sensations or the thoughts that are painful. Keep your firm attention on the fact that these sensations are what your body is needing to experience and let them overwhelm you. That is ALL that the story you have is trying to teach you: that your body has a physical need to experience that hormonal infusion… flow with it. really let it give its best shot on you. Let it devour you. That is the only thing it needs. To be allowed fully.
When you see the sensations disappear, bring the story back to the forefront to verify if they are gone or just hiding (which is very likely, especially in the early phases of this work). The way to know that the sensation has left you and thus healed, is that when you bring the story back, the physical sensation is gone. It has been replaced by peace, by expansive sensations, by relaxing, by warmth.
I myself have found that telling myself that I just need that particular hormone-like shot, allows me to put any and all thought on the back burner while I am focusing on the feeling sensation. You might find some other way to relax into the feeling, but I have found this one to be the cleanest, the most swift of all I have tried before. This is what “melts the glue” for me, you might find some other ways to disentangle from your story.
You will need solitude for the first times with this, in order to get the hang of it, but after that, you can do it anytime, anywhere, in any circumstance. You know why? Cause that is the natural way life works. If you don’t stand in life’s way, it’ll manifest, do its job, and move in other directions.

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